karag

My apologies

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 04:37:45 GMT

I haven't been this sorry, this upset at myself for hurting a friend I held so dear. I screwed up so badly, and hate myself for what I've done.

nothing happenin?

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 18:48:55 GMT

is it that I am not invited to anything anymore or is it that there just hasn't been anything going on? Its been a month and a half since I've seen anyone... its really getting to me too. if we had a party would you come?

too much thought?

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 07:58:19 GMT

So here I am... at my first entry, and I sense this could be some sort of therapeutic thing, and yet it seems so unpersonal as if I let my words float out into the abyss and perhaps someone I know reads them and interprets them...
I'm feeling really down right now, despite a new job in the next 2 weeks, and my wedding coming up in less than 11 weeks... seems that these good things are better when friends are close, and I feel like I've let many friends down. Pushed friends away without realizing... will it get better? Seems that I have no control over whether it will or will not.
Suggestions? I am open to hear anything.

Maybe it is true, that sometimes you don't know what you have until you lose it.